My Voice

My own family that ever loved me for myself
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned and fell
My soul exists beyond itself
And I accept I live in Hell

GG, I pray you hear my soul
As I evermore lose my control
I accept its time go
My blood the only truth that shows

Time to find this final sleep
No more pain to hide and keep
In my veins this poison seeps
My soul has never been so cheap

To your loving arms I fold
Ready for your soul to hold
The only my part that’s left of me
My soul is ready to be free

Please don’t cry, it’s not your fault
My actions I just can not halt
Sear this wound with life’s harsh salt
And return my soul to its default

01/10/2020

Sometimes, I feel like my own being is far too much for me to handle. My mind seems so deep and profound that I can hardly grasp it. I feel like I’m drowning in my emotions and suffocating on all these thoughts. I feel like I exist more than I should – more than everyone else does. Sometimes, everything just freezes and my mind goes “Woah. I’m alive. Holy shit.” I look around and see everyone going through the motions and, in that moment, I suddenly feel so alone. I’m surrounded by people but I feel so alone. I look into their eyes and it’s like there’s nothing there.