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Some people believe that Buddhists are these perfect people and that forgiveness and acceptance come so easily to them.
That's not true.
It is just as challenging for us to begin the journey of learning and controlling our own mind and ego as it is for you.
The ego is a powerful monster to defeat. It tries to consume your mind, filling it with anger and entitlement, judgement and greed.
When someone has hurt you, your first reaction is to either feel self-pity, anger, or both.
To let go of these is a war within your mind. Even the thought of letting go of your anger can stir up more anger.
The difference is that, in Buddhism, we know that this anger is poison to our soul. Emotions such as it do absolutely no good for us - they only make us bitter.
Forgiveness is not only for those you are forgiving - it is for yourself, as well.
Once you begin meditating and get a better grasp of your mind, you find it easier and easier to control those poisonous thoughts and emotions.
We are peaceful because we choose to be; because we have realized that there is no point to waste a moment of your life lingering on bitter feelings and allowing your heart to fill with anger, instead of being joyous for the countless miracles in this beautiful world and the countless blessings in our own lives.
I turned away from the indoctrination of my childhood and chose this path.
I choose the path of peace and love.
Growing up, I never understood the love so many people could feel for a religion - especially those filled with so much hate, judgement, and destruction.
Buddhism, however, fills my heart with so much pride and joy.
It is a difficult religion to follow - you must control the overwhelming ego, take responsibility for your negative actions in life, and learn to understand, control, and silence a mind that never stops spinning with thoughts.
Yet, it is filled with so much pride to know you are trying so hard for yourself, for others, and for the world as a whole to be a better person and fill every corner of this world you reach with peace, happiness, and love.
I am so proud and in love with the path I have chosen. It was so challenging in the beginning but I didn't let myself give up. I slowly began to improve in my meditations and I have mastered so well, now, that I can lose the feeling of separateness from this world and the feeling of my own body entirely and feel completely one with everything.
It might sound strange - it's something you can't even quite comprehend until you've experienced it, but it is the most amazing feeling in the world. As you exist as One, everything calls into perspective. You realize that this life is yours to enjoy and it is silly to waste a bit of time with anger or stress or bitterness, you realize that you are a part of something much greater and that your actions send ripples through everything - that everything you do has an effect in life, you realize you want to continue to feel One and feel such a powerful happiness and the realization of all you can do for this world you are One with, you feel a kind of calm you have never experienced in your life - a sort of acceptance that you are but a piece to a puzzle - a small particle of energy, if you will - that is everlasting because the One never ceases to exist. As you sit there in this brief moment of just a small dose of the power of Enlightenment, you also lose a fear that overwhelms so many people: the fear of death. You realize that your body is but a vessel that, in a way, does not even exist. The truth of reality is the Oneness and this separation we perceive is nothing but just that - a perception.
The first time I entered this state in meditation, I never expected it - never realized such a thing could happen. As a new student, I believed it was just a tool to silence the mind and calm the nerves. That day, however, I realized that it is so much more.
I wish I could share with you even a moment of this experience but, sadly, I can not.
It saddens me to know that so many people will never believe in the existence in such a thing or think of those who experience and share this experience as some crazy spiritualist who has lost sight of reality.
No, no. I have, for the first time in my life, caught a glimpse of what reality really is.
I hope others choose this path but I will never force it upon everyone. Each person has their own path for each life they live. (Buddhists believe in reincarnation because we are all truly just one being living multiple lives to experience the true miracle that life is.)
The path a person chooses every moment of their life is theirs and theirs alone to choose.
Only when they are ready will they begin, on their own accord, the path to enlightenment.
However, if you are curious, if you just want to try even the smallest taste of this path that has brought peace to so many people throughout the world for so many generations back to ancient times, then I encourage you to ask me any questions you might have and for help on your journey if you so decide.
You do not have to run from your religion to begin this path, simply dip your toe into the stream as you hold on to the Earth that is the world you were raised to believe in. If that is just not enough, let yourself wade through water just a bit. If that is not enough, reach down a fill your hands with the water. If, finally, that is not enough, submerge into the water and let it drift you peacefully away. (Which brings me to a very important Buddhist lesson that I shall not go into here but would be happy to if you ask.)
Try it for yourself, a little at a time, and decide for yourself if it is a path you want to pursue.
You do not have to give up your job and your house and your life as a whole to travel to some hidden monastery in the mountains to meditate for hours on end and spend every free moment in charity.
You can follow that path at your own rate, in the way that feels right in your soul.
I will close with this.
If you feel overwhelmed with life, with loss, with anger, with pain, if you feel an emptiness in your life or some emptiness inside you that you can not explain - no matter how well off you may be in life, if you wish to broaden your mind on the beliefs in this world - even if to reinforce your own faith, if you want to live such a life as that of a Buddhist - extreme or not, and if you want to give yourself a chance to experience something life-changing, then I ask you to not hesitate to speak to me.
Asking me questions is no contract, beginning the path is no contract. You may stop at any time and be told you will be punished by some ancient evil, that your soul is not pure, that you are wrong and be forced to accept what we believe.
I will still love you, still accept you, still be kind to you, still be your friend. There are no strings attached so, please, don't be afraid.
Namasté ❤️
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I am a sculpture.
Every day of my life,
I feel my experiences
chipping away the grime
of biases
and opinions
and judgments
that drenched my being
since the day I was born.
Every day of my life,
I become purer
and wiser
and cleaner -
I become a greater person.
Every day of my life,
I learn
and I grow
and I fight
to be the best me that I can be.
I chisel away the rough edges
and smooth out the deep lines
cut into my soul
by cruel strangers
by lost friends
by mislead family
and I begin break free.
I'm starting to see,
through the cracks
and the dust
and unfinished ends
the true me peeking through.
I am a work in progress.

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